True friends stabbing in the front.
that was all that really matters.
i have never felt this shitty in all my life till minutes ago where i find myself in a state of anger,confusion and depressed.
honestly bro, you were never a burden for me and never will you be one.
i don't exploit on your falters and weaknesses.
as much as i can, i always wanted the best for you.
at times, yes, i have to agree that ego got the best of me and i do blurt out harsh words out of frustration just to hope that you realize how angry i can be at times.
but you left me with words that stings the strongest of ties and heart.
like a dagger that is forced in hard to cause permanent damages.
fuck, i was on the receiving end.
"at least i don't treat my friends like trash as how you do"
those were the words and its bound to create nightmares and thoughts that hurts even the friendliest of men.
with all due respect, i don't wish to oppose that ideology.
instead, I'll keep that phrase in mind every where i will set my foot on.
maybe i did make mistakes here and there but it was unintentional.
for that, for those of the fallen, i am apologizing on behalf of my actions and words that may hurt you guys.
I was glad to hear that you view me more of a brother than a friend.
honestly, i feel the same way about you.
but to watch you walk away when i just wanted to fix things up with a simple chat was simply..hmmmm... (I JUST DON'T KNOW HOW TO EXPRESS IT HERE IN WORDS)
that was how fucked up i was. with a fresh wound in hand and thinking that i am letting 5 years of friendship burnt just like that. I was just wanting to salvage it and amend any mistakes we both have. its no denial it takes two hands to clap.
same goes to problems in a friendship. we both know that we're at fault. we have to fix things up together and that was how we operated for the past few years. the struggles we had, the fights we shared.
you're still a true friend to me.
no matter how much you are going to hate me,
for being honest with my feelings,
i don't view you anything less than what i have always been seeing you as.
a true friend.
