i am on top of the world right now.
both positive and negative views immense me.
filling up my thoughts and clearing my visions.
the world doesn't seem to be shining any hope on me.
darkness dawns on me in every single way it can possible have.
some viewed me as a liar.
others viewed me as a hypocrite.
a face of countless numbers.
all i ever wanted was you people to feel good.to feel better.
Admit that i lied my ways in order for you people to be dimmed of the light labeled "Shame".
getting the blame for the holy mistakes i've made.
i tried hiding from its judgments for long.
but it has found my spot and already starting to crash me down.
killing my very own purpose of life.
from the top of the world,
i fell,trembling down hard.
not knowing what to do,i tried turning to the people i hope to help me out.
some tried,some succeed but the others ignored my plea for help.
as i reach out my hand to grab at any support along the way.
i cried miserably knowing there was none.
only visions of it due to my positive outlook of life.
they were all illusions.
they were never real.
only hope got me thinking that way.
now i am sorry.
sorry for having to rate out truths and it comes with a deadly prize.
the whole world is questioning me.
i've reached earth's lowest point,so what do i do from here?
the limelight once again burning me deep down.
i hope everyone forgives me if i ever offended you in a way or two.
i pray everyone the best in life.
i wish that i will have a better path to follow from now.
no more turn backs for me.
no more eye-glancing at the destructed path i traveled.
the turmoil has taken its toll.
i have killed almost every inch of hope in me.
through these dark eyes,i will see my past upon.
